 Dear Friends,
Our younger son, Sam, has long cherished the dream of learning to sky dive. This August, he had the opportunity to fulfil that dream. Now, I should tell you that I suffer from vertigo, to the extent that even watching someone else go anywhere near anything that remotely resembles a precipice (never mind throwing themselves repeatedly out of a plane!) makes me start to feel sick and dizzy. So you'll understand why, in the months running up to this life-changing experience for our son, my subconscious had to do some serious rearranging of itself.
Well, among the many dreams I had about falling, drowning and other sorts of near-death, I had one that made a big impression on me. In this dream it was night-time, and I thought I was wandering in a field, having lost my way home. Then I suddenly realised I was actually standing on the edge of a precipice, thousands of feet above the ground. The realisation came too late to stop myself from falling, and as I plummeted rapidly towards the ploughed field below, I had time to think just three thoughts:
1. There's not much I can do about this, except maybe spread my arms out (like wings, or in the shape of a cross).
2. I love the Earth very much, but will I still love her when I have collided with her?
3. Didn't I read on the internet about someone who had miraculously survived a fall like this, with just a few bruises?
And then, with arms outstretched, I surrendered myself to the air and said very clearly, out loud: I'm in the hands of the Good Lord now.' The sound of my voice woke me up.
It never ceases to amaze me how our subconscious minds are able to cram so much symbolism, meaning and learning into the few seconds of a dream. Anyway, one layer of meaning I felt drawn to contemplate a great deal after this dream was the issue of control versus surrender. I thought about how very much I want to understand and flow with the laws of the universe such as the law of attraction and rest in the awareness that, whatever happens, I am in the hands of the Good Lord' and can therefore never be anything else than safe. I remembered how, when I understand rightly, I find myself in a space of joy, trust and acceptance. And I reflected on how easy it is for me to lose my inner balance, often without noticing, and slip from that beautiful state of trust, into a state of wanting to use universal laws to control what happens in my life. In which case there I am, at square one again, having thrown myself right back into the predatory arms of fear.
It's a fine line, isn't it, a tightrope we are all walking, as we gradually learn to free ourselves from the clutches of fear, separation and control which keep us divided from the universe and each other. For, slowly but surely, we are learning to spread our wings and fly in a totally new atmosphere the free air of trust and love absorbed more and more in a state of union with all life, the still centre which is our true home'.
I'm telling you all this now because, when I realised how every page of this magazine had fallen into place, seemingly by chance, I was stunned. I couldn't believe how beautifully each of the articles by Gill Edwards, Diana Cooper, William Bloom, Mary Wainwright, Richard Moss and Deepak Chopra, not to mention the Chat Page which is actually about Discovering Our Wings blended together! Like so many facets of some dazzling gem, each one illuminated for me a different aspect of the passage no, the flight from the old state of consciousness, into the New.
Being able to read things like this no matter how well I know' them already helps me stay balanced and centred, more and more, in the inner place where we are all one, and everything is perfect, now and always. I hope they do the same for you.
With much love, Ann, Geoff and the Cygnus Team
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